nothing to do..

On Manday, finally I finished all exams. Probably I will pass Level 6. ^^ I'm not worried about Jason's class because I always got good marks. A problem is Robert's class. I didn't get any A for Unit Test. I had Unit Test 3 times, and each tests were B :(. Actually, Unit Test is not English. I have to study and remember all what I learned from lectures, which means I am not smart! haha

It is really stupid but I totally forgot that I'm not a smart person. I was learning only English in here and always got A. I had thought that it's normal, but actually it isn't. I could have gotten A because it was just English. Even if I study hard for other subjects, I cannot get higher mark compare to English. I knew that, I just had forgetten. When I was in Japan, I always thought I want to be smart. I found out it doesn't change. It won't change.

I have been thinking about the truth of "studying abroad" these days. I don't know if I could improve myself since I came here. If yes, how did I improve? I don't know at all. I don't feel anything that I had changed. Maybe not. But it's really sad if I haven't changed at all. Why did I come here? What had I been doing this 6 months? I need to find the answer in this last 2 months. What the studying abroad changes me.